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A Fake Ring, Real Temptation, and a Golden Marriage

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October 31, 2022 3:01 am

A Fake Ring, Real Temptation, and a Golden Marriage

Our American Stories / Lee Habeeb

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October 31, 2022 3:01 am

On this episode of Our American Stories, this next story comes to us from Sarah Wells, author of "American Honey: A Field Guide to Resisting Temptation."

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Let's take a listen. I grew up on a farm in the frayed edge of suburbia. I would say it was an auburn township, pretty traditional upbringing with a stay at home mom and the working class dad, kind of a pull yourself up from the bootstraps type of home life. And that was what I expected the future to look like. I had one degree in mind when I would graduate from college and that was my MRS. I had dreams of being a writer of teaching, but it was always in the background that what would really happen is I would meet the man of my dreams and we would live happily ever after.

I would stay home and raise my kids just like my mom had done. And so that was the mission that I had coming into high school and into my college career. Always keeping in mind my dad. My dad was this and is somebody that I've always looked up to tremendously. I adored my dad and wanted to be with my dad all the time and he was kind of my model for the kind of man that I wanted to marry. And so I went through, like many girls do, a boy crazy phase where from probably the age of 13 to 21, I had a boyfriend every month, long-term boyfriend relationships. And as soon as that one would end, I would start in and find a new one. And I really craved love and adoration.

My dad was a hard-working dad and he was always gone early in the morning, working late into the evening. And I think that I craved his attention so much that I had kind of a gaping hole of desire from a young teenager all the way through to college. Eventually I met my now husband, Brandon. We met when I was 19 and I was ready to marry him 10 days into dating him.

I was certain that he was going to be the one, but I was also certain that every previous boyfriend was going to be the one. So this isn't actually like amazing information that I had met my husband. And so we dated for 10 months and got engaged and got married four months later. And after my husband proposed to me, I was rifling through his side dresser drawer looking for receipts for the dinner that we had gone on the night that he was engaged.

I was putting together a scrapbook to memorialize our short engagement. And I came across a receipt that I thought was the dinner receipt. It turned out to be the receipt for my engagement ring, which looked beautiful. It was shiny and I loved to look at it. I loved everyone who complimented it. And I was like, yes, it is a beautiful ring. Thank you. But it turned out that my ring was not what I thought it was.

It turned out to be on sale at a department store. It was far less than what I thought he had spent on my ring. And these things are things that I didn't think mattered to me. I didn't think that it was a big deal to wear expensive rings. I didn't wear expensive jewelry.

I was a kind of dirt under your fingernails type of girl. But that mattered. And the need to feel worthy and to be invested in as his future bride mattered to me. It was really hard to get over it. And I wanted to just suck it up and go on and just get married.

But I couldn't do it. It was too big of a block to our relationship. And so I confronted him about it and asked him like, or I didn't ask him. I told him I found the receipt for my ring. And obviously he knew immediately that this was a problem. So what I was used to, another expectation that I had growing up, was that people didn't really say they're sorry.

They would be defensive or redirect blame. And when I confessed to my husband, my fiance at the time that I had found this receipt, I expected him to be defensive and to make a big deal about it and turn it back on me. And when instead he apologized and asked for forgiveness, I was blown away.

Like, oh, this man is not exactly who I thought he was in a good way. But marriage ended up being a whole lot more work than I expected. And then having babies ended up being a whole lot more work than I expected. It didn't work out just that you got pregnant. It actually turned out that you got pregnant and then didn't get pregnant and miscarried or struggled to get pregnant. I had two miscarriages before we had our first child, our daughter, Lydia.

Then I thought, oh, well, this is it. I'm back on track. I'm happily married. My husband has a job.

I'm going to stay home with my daughter who is beautiful and tiny and cute. And about six weeks into my maternity leave, I felt like half my brain had fallen out of my head. I couldn't put half of a sentence together anymore. And I called my boss and was like, I have to come back to work. I don't know who I am.

I don't know how I'm going to do this. And I was 24 at the time. And all of this turned into this early 20s, late 20s season of thinking that I was one type of person and discovering that I was actually a whole other kind of person. I learned that I looked up to my dad, not because that was maybe the type of guy I wanted to marry, but the kind of person that I was. I was a hardworking person.

I loved to invest all of myself into a team of people or into projects and that kind of thing. And my husband ended up being the stay-at-home parent and being the one who was raising our children, which was shocking to everyone involved, including us, myself and my husband. I knew that things at home when I took my full-time job were not great for my husband.

He wasn't enjoying being a stay-at-home dad nearly as much as he thought he might. But I didn't have a real good picture until one morning we were dancing around each other in the kitchen getting breakfast ready. I was in my pant suit with my travel mug and my phone and my purse and was ready to walk out the door to the job that I loved and that I felt like suddenly I was made for. And my husband was in his warm-up pants and an untucked t-shirt and he was not shaven for the last however many days, who knows. And our daughter is screaming in the high chair and my infant son is wailing in the rocker and I go to pass my husband on the way out of the kitchen and say goodbye, I'll see you at lunch. And he slams the kitchen cabinet and turns to me and screams.

I hate my life. And you've been listening to Sarah Wells tell the story of her life and ultimately her family life. Well, we're going to find out how that ends and how that works when we come back with Sarah Wells' story, her book, American Honey, A Field Guide to Resisting Temptation.

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And I'm like, what? It felt completely out of the blue and I didn't know what to say because I was so shocked that the life that I felt like we were was it kind of a dream life and because I had everything I wanted. I had the husband, I had a job, I had children.

I couldn't see how he couldn't see the beauty of our life. He was struggling to find work. We found a church community and started to build friendships and that helped.

We started to go on dates on a weekly basis to try to stay connected in that way. But what he really needed was to find another outlet and a work outlet. The stay-at-home parent thing wasn't working for him.

He eventually found work and began working as a contractor for ESPN and Fox and started working on the road. Sometimes I would get to go with him and it was heaven. We went to dinner, we would go out dancing and sing karaoke and do all these things that we love together and made each other laugh.

And then we would come home and reality would sink back in. He would go back on the road by himself and I would go back to work by myself. And in the midst of all of that, other people became very important to me. My friends became very important to me, but also conversations with other people became really important. And I was blindsided by a developing friendship with a friend who was a man and we totally hit it off. I was in a writing community and he shared a lot of the same interests and we just really connected.

He was funny. We started texting a lot and suddenly we were texting a whole lot. And all of a sudden I realized how much I was sharing of my life with this stranger out of the kind of out of the blue and not with my husband.

One day I had been texting with this person on and off throughout the day. I felt really uneasy about it and told my husband, hey, I'm gonna run over to my friend's house for a little bit. And I was telling her about this relationship and she said, Sarah, have you said good night to him? And the color drained out of my face and I realized, yes, I just wished him good night, like 15 minutes ago. And she's like, oh, that's a bad sign. And she said, you need to end it and you need to tell your husband. And I like, what are you talking about? None of these things. This isn't a big deal.

This is so not a big deal. And I told her, I don't think I can do that. And she's like, well, if you don't do that, this will just keep happening where you will find yourself drawn to someone else who is saying all the right things, but is the wrong person. And so I did, I told my husband what was happening and we had kind of a fight about it. He felt bad. And then we continued on with our regular life. So after nine years of being married to Brandon, we had three children. We'd had four miscarriages.

We had three dogs. We had bought a house together. We had sold a house together.

We had refinished a house together. We had invested so much of ourselves into our shared life. And we had on top of all of that, decided to change our diets. And suddenly I was feeling fit and fine and healthy and not pregnant.

For the first time in nine years, I was myself. And this created other attention that I didn't anticipate from other people besides my husband. So at one evening event, I was having a great conversation with my colleague and he was starting to go through a divorce or thinking about getting a divorce. And I just felt really bad for him because my marriage was great and I didn't want them to separate. And so I found myself having to make a conscious choice whether to destroy my life or preserve my life. I never, air quote, I never did anything.

Nothing ever happened. But the emotional energy and the mental energy of washing my daughter's hair in the tub and only thinking about whether he was going to text me that night or whether he was going to send me an email that said something inappropriate in it. And how would I handle that? It came to another head. And there was another moment where I was in the car with my colleague and he started rubbing my back and we were in my driveway. My husband wasn't home. My children weren't home. And it was time for me to get out of the car.

Here's that intersection. Here's the opportunity. Either you destroy your relationship with the rest of your life or you get out of the car. And I felt this. I heard this voice say, Sarah, get out of the car now.

And it was not audible, obviously, but I heard it. And I said, I have to get out of this car. So I swung the door open. I said, good night. Thank you for bringing me home and slammed the door and walked into the house.

And as I walked through the door, the light from his headlights scanned across my wedding picture that was hanging on the wall. And I felt this weight lift off of me, like freedom. You are no longer enslaved by this thing. You don't have like, you don't have to resist this anymore. It's done. It's over.

This will never be a thing again. And I felt strong and ready to face whatever was going to come next with my husband, which ended up doing a lot of confessing and having a lot of conversations where we're standing in the middle of the kitchen together, holding each other, crying. I'm apologizing. It's like, I forgive you for whatever it is that you feel like you need to be forgiven for. And that's the man that I married.

And that's the foundation that carried us through into healing, into rebuilding trust and into being able to confide in each other about everything. To celebrate our 10th anniversary, we headed out of town for one of Brandon's work weekends. Right before heading out to dinner, he said, I have something for you that I think you should wear to dinner. And I felt embarrassed about this because it's been 10 years and I love my wedding ring. It's pretty. I'm over the receipt.

We're fine now, you know. And this investment in a real diamond ring and a real engagement ring felt extravagant. And so Brandon opened up this case and it was beautiful, absolutely beautiful ring. And then he said, I have something else for you and handed me an envelope. And inside was the lyrics to a song that he had started to write for me.

And I started bawling. It was so touching to me to have him think about what our marriage meant to him and what our relationship was about. It far exceeded the price of any engagement ring. The engagement ring ended up being a real bonus course, because I have it on my finger all the time.

But the real gift of having this start of a song that he had composed for me, touched me far deeper than any engagement ring could ever have reached. And an excellent job by Greg on the production on the piece and the storytelling editing. And a special thanks to Sarah Wells for sharing her story with all of us and her story of her bouts with temptation. And her book is American Honey, A Field Guide to Resisting Temptation.

Go to your local bookstore or wherever you get your books to get it. And there's that critical moment where she says something so important. I was no longer enslaved by this thing. And the enslavement was not her marriage. The marriage gave her freedom. It's the temptation that enslaved her. That's a deep Christian notion, but you don't have to be a Christian who have experienced this notion. The story of a marriage in the end and what saved it.

Sarah Wells' story, her husband's two, here on Our American Stories. When the world gets in the way of your music, try the new Bose QuietComfort earbuds too. Next-gen earbuds uniquely tuned to the shape of your ears. They use exclusive Bose technology that personalizes the audio performance to fit you, delivering the world's best noise cancellation and powerfully immersive sound so you can hear and feel every detail of the music you love. Bose QuietComfort earbuds too. Sound shape to you. To learn more, visit Bose.com. Next-level beach vacation at Catalonia Hotels and Resorts in Mexico and the Caribbean with ChiefCaribbean.com.
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