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What Does Restoration Feel Like After Hours

The Masculine Journey / Sam Main

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December 11, 2021 12:35 pm

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I don't feel like physically I don't fill a cloud on on the anymore unite. What's cartoon character Robbie. You may remember one walk around with the dust cloud does it when it was taken yeah there was another one to you or does your yeah you know my kind walked around feeling that way. It is feeling this presence on on me and physically. It is felt very heavy and so physically that feels a lot better and I still troubled my ankle and I saw trouble with the other stuff. Physically that's not gone I'm just talking. I feel like awaits. Been lifted from me. You know to get back at Scripture.

You know my yoke is light right just shows me is taking on someone else's yoke. The enemy joke through that and emotionally. I felt so much better. Spiritually, you know just what's much closer to God and all those places have been touched and that it was just a few little minutes at boot camp that broke a cycle that's been going on for more years and I know you and II don't know how far back he goes that I took on things that weren't mine as relationships didn't work out right in and that's not pushing away the things that are mine like a talk about before I get on those helping me understand the difference in and that's where the freedom came in, I want to live in that freedom.

I'm looking very forward to moving into relationship in a very healthy way and never felt as good moving towards a relationship ever because he has been working on me and not looking for validation there and also not owning was not mine. That's enough about me, but that's kinda what I've been feeling all the way and so here's a clip that I have. This is my clip clips that still ecliptic is when the two groups became the mind was this this freedom. My heart just feels free in little ways and I still have a lot of other ways of being attacked. There's so many other sides of of life it still coming at me and that if I can hold on to this one. You have those have less of an impact.

Not that they can be devastating.

That is, have less of an impact is my hearts in a good place you announce when the next Harold would you like to go next.

First I'll talk about physical restoration. I had knee surgery developed a blood clot. They put me on Xarelto and for about three months could not sleep. I had terrible insomnia.

The restoration was getting off Xarelto and getting perfect where I could sleep at night. Then the emotional after my sweetheart and I got engaged and I was no longer going to be trying to be a fighter pilot in the Navy, a jewel in the Alabama National Guard and I went out for eight weeks. Basic training when I got back off that plane after eight weeks, so her I didn't need an airplane. I was in the air.

The spiritual thing to me when when I have failed most miserably God in our own opposite sides of the Grand Canyon when I get right person to go front porch swing Evan a talk that's what restoration is my spiritually. Thank you. You announcements for more of you looking right at all it wants and making wiser and probably what I was you may know, my word for the year was to engage which, interestingly, God took down quite the adventure.

If that word and that he had me start to memorize Psalms and which is actually ingesting the word of God where you have at your disposal all the time and specifically the hundred 19 Psalm which is really from some people standpoint the ultimate Psalm on spiritual warfare so you're you're hitting all these different points in over eight verses of every letter of the Hebrew alphabet, but the 21st really speaks. I think what you are talking about and and and speaks to live where God had me through the last few years is the 21st which is in the gimbal section says my soul break if longing for thy judgments at all times which sounds kinda weird in the King James no doubt, but the idea of judgments from God's perspective is God looks for the when he's judging he's looking for the good right so went when you're going to him trying to get his perspective on the particular given situation. He can point out to you. Here's the good.

Here's word the direction that you should be going in his judgment is going to have you go.

The good way right towards goodness.

And so, like when Rodney gave his talk three boot camps ago whatever any startup had disappointment and all of a sudden I realize that I was projecting that disappointment in my father's that was just like what you said Sam. It was something the enemy of the handed me but it wasn't what God saw that wasn't the good in the situation that was what he saw.

So I'm owning something that is actually bad. And so my soul is literally breaking for the longing that it have for God's judgment on this situation is not that God is disappointed in me any way shape or form but actually he's very pleased with me that we had at the 80th verse says let my heart be sounds which means actually perfect so complete. Let my heart be sounds in your commandments in your statutes actually that I be not ashamed at end of the more I thought about verse lately and the more I realize if I no longer think I'm a disappointment to God but actually when I start to feel shame in any way shape or form say father Houck, however, might not turning to you to father me in the situations like chickens like normal. Sam and all I feel ashamed right this minute because of so behind on my yardwork. I'm so behind on this card.

What's the next thing that they end and let him father, me through it and immediately the dish he gives me my heart back and I can and I can get some shame. I know that's not the long-term restoration type of situation, but it when you put those two Psalms.

Those two verses together. You can't get an idea how.

If you have that word in your heart in your and you're constantly chewing on it right. He's helping you become your father-son right and be the me that I always wanted to beat as Jerry McGuire would say we have is just those are really key points out of that that clip that I do not really. It was genius.

I think the Holy Spirit clearly directed whoever you know set up that intro to Jerry McGuire's amazing move and to get something to tell you fair and are not limited to the chosen thing last night in part, they did move me was the names of God and reason I was asking that is even if there was a name of God. That said, God hears write you back to some of my story and I no longer think a lot of it is a down a lot of shows but you know I was attacked there so long. You have nothing to say all like anything in the name Samuel literally means God hears you listen at hears you. And so if God had that name. Stick with me for my I'm not a tattoo guy my kids in my oldest son and youngest daughter both love them, you know, and they always ask you what you can get a tattoo of us and I don't know. I don't know anything out permanently on my body. I don't need your names I know your names and I don't mean I don't need that stuff.

That's one thing I would actually consider putting on my body is God hears as a reminder to me and if anyone it would ever ask you what that means means God hears me and I need to know that on everyday basis and when I feel like no one else is listening and I don't get my pickle or whatever that that it is right, whatever that whatever that way. That type of thing. If you have a list of the sado that the references go back and listen anyway that that's again it's part of a restoration piece that I think guides taking out know that I'll ever do it, but that's someone I think it would consider doing nothing, pickle the Celtic shoulder hears of the idea to contact you via God hears that any vehicle that my friend Bill Peter Piper fire ant gleaming kosher. Only it is official minute because Andy and Mike wanted to give Andy I get quick you know that you know if the first note that the Jerry Maguire clip really spoke to me in you know what it feels like to me and I don't want to say that you know everything is always you know just great and wonderful but I can tell you that I used to be so up-and-down. I was so fickle, so ashamed brought a lot of stuff in my life and and you know I got didn't validation from somebody else will. Heck you know your your your dependent on the move somebody else of whether you are. You know going all right you know if if if life is good or not. Let's pretty you know, up and down you know you're just not going to have any, stability. When you know you guys have heard me and I will continue to go back to it because it's what might impact God took me through so much stuff in healing and seeing wounds, imposing all that stuff but I really found God as father and the restoration that he was able to do in my who I saw him as an again always thought like had a good view of God.

It was this orphan spirit that you mention Sam of of just not really feeling like he was there for me. My dad, as I've mentioned kind of went out of my life as an adolescent, and that made a big impact. He wasn't there only probably the most critical terms a son could have but anyway I was just thinking, what does it feel like, and I feel like I walk today with such confidence and boldness and security. Security that I didn't I didn't even know I always desired. I felt like Jerry McGuire when he said I want to become a father-son and and you know I return to that place that identity of what who I am as a person, but just it just a tidbit I went to get a Christmas tree this weekend and I wanted to go to that there is a road I lived on a Christmas tree, try together several years and always to like to get well where I normally would go get it.

They were closed and they all weekday never closes early, so I got finally go to the place I wanted to win.

Up to this place and it I love scenery. I love beautiful views. It was the both beautiful view that I think there is an area at least not on the Blue Ridge, but close to it beautiful. I really enjoyed people were nice Christians and all.

So I was coming back down from that and I saw this dear Ballin up on the ridge and it was like God was like this for you and then it was like that Scripture that I used to hear it. I was like I'll never get to that place. You know, as the deer pants for the water so muscle pull pants after you like shame always got in the way of that feeling of really feeling like I was somebody that would have that passion for God and you know is that you know God, I really do like I know and it was just it was a great moment and just solidified what God is done in my life.

In the past 10 years.

That's awesome as you make some comment about you know not taken the chains on him to drag a tree out all right. Griswold I can do that after that house for pretty amazing think I was thinking yeah I did the new name tell the left boot camp and have done a lot in my name and and think about restoration. One of the things it is as come out of this is that was easy. God show me the previous boot camp was that I had sacrificed myself on the altar of acceptance and in he's begin to unfold that when I letting in the last little while and where that has led me at times is you know, I grew up in a family and disclaimer.

I believe you should be a part of a church body and daily but it was almost like the message I got was you gotta be there a recounted order open and God's keeping count and what will people think if I'm not there, and that has wreaked havoc in my life. Nothing wrong with perfect attendance, but it has wreaked havoc because it was that altar of acceptance he wasn't about being closer to God for me a lot of years it was about check off the list and make sure your scene and that is called great grief and loss and everything almost cost me my marriage and just simply because I was gone all the time I had quoted ministry. In doing this. Kathy did the why should just understand I don't ever recommend that but what God is doing now is he's unpacking. So stuff is that I'm finding some freedom in not being obligated not only in the stuff does not mind, and you people say hey missed you last week but it was it a you are here.

Your seat no longer your seed anymore and I am a bit you and my wife is beginning to engage in and she begin the engage in this community, which is beautiful will calls she has put the church community had a normally but you know she truly had mentioned it before, little an area she talks about how authentic you guys are an authority on the bunch posers and believe me, but that that's the beauty of what it feels like mentally, physically and spiritually is that as I learn to walk in another freedom that being who I truly am that I don't have to be a Robbie or Sam or Harold or or E by else I can learn to be me and who actually and that is the biggest battle. I think thinking running in a microphone from the Abbott after half of that cyclic.

I can each one of you said something that like that's part of my story. That's a part of my that's a part of my story is that the movie clip.

I know we have enough time to best you and it was.

That's what I love about being in this band of brothers in God's word and then I get other brothers, you know that you just you be a part that you dislike you start to hear stuff in the story.

NetSuite that's when you get that freedom of I can hear some else's story I can apply it to mine and I come out on the other side better in the neck. I can offer up my story you know I can have the courage to actually say this was going on my life. Now this is what's happening this what's going on in have people here that and not be worried about. Oh what are they gonna say they gonna think what it now playing all my hope and fear in man rather than God.

So for me now is really bad about just the word contentment is the best word I been up to come up with that says I'm I'm good. I'm I'm good with myself. I make mistakes.

I have problems.

Things are rosy but I'm okay with that. I going to my walk, I don't have to be like you just said and other people walks out to worry about whether people are saying any I can just I can do my thing and I can be content with where I met is not always happy is not always joy is not always use wonderful emotional things I'm good I'm I'm okay with myself now being screwed up and being is and all the other problems I have.

I can live with those but it's it's being able to like you talked about you and think about her doing this might K the emotional stuff is easy, but the exit physical physical is really physical and Mike, I have not been working out a long time just had a serious back spasm that basically crippled me hear from a little while and have gotten some absolute really from that which is so thankful Robbie sent me to a chiropractor there, but note unit. I just think through the Mike just not having anxious moments not having tempered. Not having anger not just being upset about other things I would've been just want to throw my hand through the wall because of all the shenanigans we had the last couple years it's been all kinds of stuff.

What would what would what would normally just tick me off as been somewhat yeah it's really stupid, but money I do about it guys that controlled us okay all things work together for good Psalms of rolloff it and live in it and talk about it with my brothers and other people bit I'm not going to let it rule me and that's where you have control think you you actually is funny before you said the one word that I was being prompted to say I was going ask you guys if you could that restoration down to one word. You only use one word, nothing more. What would be the one word you would use we decide contentment right so going around the room and I will pass you would like let me and probably probably really like contentment does not note note note because they can work correctly. Danica still taken. So thinking I see smoke.

I worked joy joy. Okay that's good work. No temper that Seward now began to temper list say okay we can compound word. Temptress, I must admit that one fill out freedom. Yeah, I mean this is really what it's all talk about is nothing in that yeah well you'd Artie said it so with near but probably just, yet there is a confidence in who I am is the confidence that was figures good using the Internet one deemed renewed in freedom United. I used it in that would be one today. I think at second a close second for me would be hope that the other there's hope on the horizon because this whole world doesn't really seem like it's very helpful. Most the time. You know, even when you don't watch the news and the other things that I try to stay away from it. Still it's it's it's hard to have hope right now and so that restoration provides a freedom which is me hope that you know things regardless of what's going around in the world are going on in the world that it's going to be okay and I talk so long we don't have time.

Could Danny I'm sorry to get you besmirched a Christmas Carol E now.

I even said it right now. I set it up with Ebenezer Scrooge with the Georgie scout reference in and we can even get to let Rodney right now to say this reminds me of a difference in their who had everything nice to exhibit design no matter what the topic is right I will tell you that the set up next week will be started first to you.

We've all done right believe you know been around and in and set up a much more than that with our new beginnings. So hope, contentment, confidence, redeemed joy filled compound word of temper free or whatever last Emperor list to burlesque the competing yeah I like that what ever I set is this different, as if I Then we had a freedom we had hope in so many words, and in what it has to do this we couple things. If you feel yourself posing.

Why and into what's machines underneath it right. If you feel yourself in shame to God why are you bringing it up to my heart because I know you want to heal it and walk there with him talking next week. This is the Truth Network

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