Karl Marlantes: Turning Ghosts into Ancestors

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First of all, I hid. I mean, I avoided talking about it with anybody because I did have the feeling and I think it's shared by a lot of veterans, not all veterans, but I did have the feeling that people wouldn't understand. Particularly the dark side of things. There's a thrill to war. There's a thrill to crack cocaine too, and there's enormous, enormous costs.

I would never want to pay the cost to get that thrill, but to deny the thrill is false. How do you tell somebody who's, you know, I don't know, you know, somebody that you're trying to date and she's a college girl and you just, you just come back. I mean, how do you talk about that? You don't because you're just, first of all, back in the Vietnam era, you would be just, you know, people really were horrible to us, you know, like we were really criminals, you know. So why would you even want to open yourself up to that? So I mean, I just, you know, I never told anybody I was in the Marines or in Vietnam.

Just didn't. So that was one way of handling it. It's not right because you've got to talk about it for two reasons. One is for your own mental health. You gotta get these these ghosts out where you can see them. My friend Joe Bobrow calls it turning ghosts into ancestors. They're part of you but if you don't deal with them, they'll haunt you. I mean, the reason that you're getting bar fights and your marriage breaks up and you start doing too much alcohol is is because you're being driven by a ghost and you're not conscious of it.

You gotta get it out and one of the ways of getting it out, I did it by writing but a classic way is just talking to people, people who you trust and that would be like your spouse or your brother or your sister. We didn't even do that. The other side is if you don't tell people what they're actually asking, you know, 19 year old kids to do for for their country, they'll ask them for really trivial ****. I think half of the military is from seven southern states. The people that are fighting are, you know, their mom and dad works for Walmart.

They're not partners in big city law firms. If you don't get these stories out, the people who are making the big decisions who and most of them have never even been in the military will have no idea what they're asking and will continue to sacrifice our kids for really trivial reasons. Anyway, I just clamped up. It's the wrong way of doing it.

I use this analogy. Most men, I would say the vast vast majority of men don't understand and young women who have not done it, done the experience, what it's like to have a child. What is it like to go through childbirth? If the women who have gone through childbirth feel that they're somehow superior to the rest of us, that's a horrible tragedy for the human race and luckily for us, the women don't do that but they've been through an experience that young women and men have no clue about really other than what you read in stories or what you hear people talk about but if you listen to your mother or your sister or in my age, your daughters talk about childbirth and they talk about it freely, you get an idea. You'll never really understand it but you get an idea and if it wasn't for that, you would have no idea.

I think that veterans and I often tell combat veterans, don't leave that chip on your shoulder because it is true. I don't think anybody can understand it unless they've done it. I just think that's just the case. You can get close. I mean, good storytelling, good writing, you know, good poetry.

There's been some wonderful songs. They get close but you'll never get there and you and I'll never understand really childbirth. The only people that understand it ones have done it. It's the same with combat but the key is that that can't put you into a category where you think that you're better than other people. You just have had a different experience from other people and that's a very important thing to understand. Like I say, I use the example of women who have had babies.

They're not superior to the women who haven't and I think that that's the right attitude, not superior, inferior, just different and you won't ever, I don't think you'll ever be able to bridge the gap. Just that simple. I had to deal with this bronze star I got for pulling the kid out from underneath the machine gun. I was written up for that, you know, you know, did a heroic deed, brave deed in front of a whole bunch of people and so I got written up for a medal and I have that one.

It's on, it's in the shadow box on the wall in the living room. I had to deal with it. I wouldn't have been able to talk to you about that without having written it first because the feeling of I wonder if I killed him, I wonder if I killed him.

God, I could have done it. I mean, it would, it would haunt me at night. I wake up in the middle of the night going, oh Jesus, did I put that bullet hole in it? We'll never know because the bodies were blown up and I wish I'd have, you know, known then.

I mean, you know, but I'll never know. But having written it down and got it out, I remember, you know, literally bawling and snot hitting the keyboard. I mean, I was bawling. I wasn't crying. I was bawling. You know, you know when you're bawling is when you're running out of, you know, both nostrils as well as your eyes and writing it down got it out and I could examine it and take responsibility for what I might have done or didn't do and it was clearly easy because after I wrote it, first of all, I can talk about it without, I mean, I think before I'd written about it, I just start shaking, literally start shaking and would have to shut up, couldn't carry on. I don't have that problem and I think that having written it, the ghost is turned into an ancestor. It doesn't haunt me anymore. It's just part of my life.

So the writing was important for those reasons and also it was important for the other side of it, which I said that people who haven't had the experience, I wanted to tell our story, our story, what 19 year old kids are trying to grow up and be Marines and be in combat all at the same time and it wasn't easy and you know, unless our story gets told, no one will know. I mean, this is kind of a funny story, but a woman came up to me at a reading and you know, it was a line to sign the books and I was signing books and her turn came up and she was sort of, you know, I'm really embarrassed and sort of hemming and hawing. Oh gosh, I don't know what to say. I said, what's wrong?

What do you want to talk about? I said, go ahead and she said, well, you know, I was in college during the Vietnam War and I just hated it. It was wrong. I hated the war and I was a protester. I protested every chance I could get. I protested and then I read Matterhorn and I didn't know you guys slept outside.

I about fell out of my chair, but you see it's a college educated woman, college educated and didn't know we slept outside in Vietnam. I'm going like there's a large large gap between you know, the military and the civilians and that writing helps close it. And a terrific job on the production, editing and storytelling by our own Monty Montgomery and a special thanks to Colmore Lantus and by writing these things down, he was able to turn ghosts into ancestors, but more importantly, I think he was connecting warrior's lives with civilian lives just as Stephen Ambrose did with Saving Private Ryan interviewing all those men and women who put their lives at risk in World War II.

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