Bible Wonders - My Lieing Struggles

Did you ever wonder? Did you ever wonder?

I do. Did you ever wonder? Why the sun always rises but the stars never fall?

Why dry land is never satisfied by water? And why fire never says enough? Enough. I was a little bit nervous about the story yesterday, which I had a lot because I met with a lot of different people. That at times I exaggerate things and sometimes I don't tell the whole story. And, you know, classic example for me is, you know, I'll come home and I go to open the refrigerator. My wife usually asks, have you washed your hands? And that's the kind of thing that I'll say, oh, yeah, or, you know, like the seven dwarfs in Sleeping Beauty or in Snow White. They said, she asked them if they'd wash their hands.

They said, recently. That part may be a little humorous, but what I do is not at all funny. And it isn't, it's obviously something that I'm really trying to work on with God. And so I thought, as he brought it to my mind this morning, it's something that we needed to revisit. I might study it a little bit and see if I could find something so that I could take the nasty plunge, so to speak. I don't know if you've heard me talk about that before, but Pastor James, with encouraging prayer once did a bit where like, if you can just fall into God and you're, you know, just enveloped by him, then everything becomes okay. And so I really want to take the nasty plunge when it comes to my problem with lying. But, you know, I'm not there yet. So here's what I kind of discovered.

I hope it helps you as I feel like it's going to help me. We're going to find out here in the next few days. So to deceive or to lie in Hebrew, the word is kahash. And interestingly, we find it in Genesis 18, 15 for the first time with Sarah. And when, you know, she laughed after the Lord or the visitor to Abraham told them that she was going to have a child.

And that visitor slash the Lord asked her, you know, why did you laugh? And she denied it. And that word denied is actually the same word as the word lie, because obviously it's the same kind of thing that Sarah did there. Like, did you wash your hands? And so she, she covered up what actually was going on.

And it seems like a minor thing. But obviously to the Lord, it wasn't. And he called her out on it. And then after she lied, he said, Oh, you did, you did laugh. And then he left Sarah, and he went on to talk to Abraham. And, you know, there's the deal.

Like, this isn't good. So when you look inside the word, it really is descriptive of what's really going on when we lie. That word starts with a hoof, which means like the palm of your hand, so it's to cover something, or to suppress something, which deceiving is doing that. And the thing that you're suppressing is the letter, or the letters het, and the letter shin. And so when you have that letter het, that that letter means life. But more specifically, if you look inside that letter, it is glory coming down from heaven, a male energy, and a female energy reflecting it. So here you have God's reflection going back up to God underneath this hoopa of marriage. And so to suppress that is to suppress God's glory, literally. That's what you're doing.

And that shin on the end would then be, you know, the chewing or the consuming, the oxidizing of that particular glory. So what you're really doing is you're covering up God's glory. And you might think, well, gee, if I added something to a story, how did I cover up God's glory? Well, the truth was the way that God wanted this situation to really happen. Even if it may look really bad on God, he still is completely in control, and it is what truly is. And so in some way, it reflects him, the truth does, every single time, because he is the truth. And so the word truth, when you look at that word, it starts off with an allad, and then a mem, and then a tov.

And the reason is, is that that's the beginning of the alphabet, the middle of the alphabet, and the end of the alphabet, because the truth is the truth at the beginning, at the middle, and the end. And although things may look really bad, as we talked about with the letter tests, that the concept of goodness is there, even though we can't see it. God is doing something really good in all things.

And it will be revealed how it all fits together into God's plan. And so getting back to my little situations, as I begin to process, you know, what's causing me to do this? Well, it says in that passage about Sarah, she did it because she was afraid. And so when you're afraid, your focus is on yourself, rather than the fear of the Lord, which is your focus being on the Lord. And so it's like a check engine light, I think this is what I'm thinking that if I catch myself wanting to lie, if I can do that, it's like the check engine light going off like Robbie, you are not taking the nasty plunge here, you're not trusting God with what is. And you need to get your focus off whatever you're afraid of. And you need to get your focus back on how God's glory is amazing, even though it may not look amazing to me right this minute. Because my faith is that I know he's got it under control. And that idea of the seventh anointing of the heaven spirit of the Holy Spirit there in Isaiah 11, a delight in the fear of the Lord tells you that this stuff is beautiful.

And I know it's hard for me to even interpret that as I'm dealing with people and finding myself as my focus goes back to myself, how I'm, you know, being perceived or trying to make myself look better than I do. Because in some way I'm hiding, however, I'm covering it, it's being covered. And what I'm covering is the truth. I'm literally covering life, I'm covering God's glory. So the another way you could put it is, I'm photo bombing Jesus, right? I got to get my face in the picture. So sometimes, that may be completely pride oriented, or maybe always it's pride oriented stuff that I got to wonder about and obviously that'll work on as I am so grateful for the Holy Spirit convicting me of my deceiving, my kahash from God's glory.