Healing and Deliverance From Fear

This is the Truth Network. Resurrection, and you cannot escape the factor of deliverance that is so apparent, really everywhere that you turn, everywhere I turn, it's not that Resurrection Day, some say Easter Sunday, that we just celebrate a day or the Passion Week. This whole season of time, every year, it's an annual event that, because we are connected with Almighty God, we sense the resurrection life that was made available on the cross of Calvary, the resurrection, and resurrection life made available to all of humanity. You know, to all those who receive Him, He does become resurrection life. This is the Running With Horses Podcast, and my name is Shirley Weaver. I'm glad you're here.

Listen, this season, I mean, it's undeniable. You begin to think of the times that God has touched your life, even for the person who doesn't consider themselves to be like a huge believer or a huge theologian. They know the times that God intervened one way or the other, and they remember the impact on their life as a result. So when you have that in your memory, and you draw from that place, it's like reliving. The emphasis and what took place reoccurs in your thinking. It reoccurs really, you might even say, in the cellular life of your body, definitely in the brain, because that's what a memory is, as we recall things.

Certainly we recall many negative things. We know that's not profitable, but this kind of memory, the memory of God's intervention in our lives and the way that He moves supernaturally and the outcome is beyond anything that we expected. And I hear every day from people who have experienced divine interventions and supernatural rescues and just the relief, if it's personal or if it's a family member or a grandchild, a great-grandchild, whoever. When you know that you've been delivered, you are marked forever. And yes, there's gratitude, and yes, you recount the details over and over and on some occasions, but you're impacted, and it's undeniable, and you really can't get away from that.

I think of it as God's way of visiting men while men are trying to tell Him they don't need Him. And I can say that because I'm confident I did that. And I feel often if the thing I experienced is so obvious to me, I'm probably not the only one.

People around the world are pretty much the same in that respect. I was a part of a house church. Our family was a part of a house church, and one of the things that was probably the favorite time in the Sunday morning service because, well, we actually did meet Saturday evenings sometimes, but we also met Sunday mornings. So either way, whenever we met, our probably most popular time was testimony time. We called it testimony time, your time to talk about what God has done, what He's done for you, maybe what He's done for someone else. It's a testimony, whether it's in a small thing, a big thing, a momentary thing, a life-saving thing, this is your time to testify. And what it produced is pretty remarkable. We still talk about those days when that group of people gets together. We talk about testimony time and how it impacted us reliving those stories, those occasions, those interventions, that element of God that just calms. And it's not because I deserve it or you deserve it, it's because He's God.

And His love is that big, that big. Over the last two to three years, there has been sort of a struggle for me personally with my vision. Obviously it's a lifelong struggle, but thanks to medical science and wonderful doctors, I have always been blessed to be able to see clearly and continue my business or my schooling or whatever life in general. But the last two or three years, that started to change. And no matter what was attempted, no matter the approach that was taken, it was as though there wasn't a solution this time and the vision was decreasing, the acuity was decreasing.

So for me personally, I'm in a dilemma and what I normally would seek out as a way to solve the issue, it's not performing and is not, not only is not performing, but things are declining sort of exponentially. And so I wouldn't say there was panic or fear, however, you and I both know both of those elements are associated with anything that affects our physical life. But just the reality, just the reality was a strong message and it's ever with you. And so as we went through the process of about six surgeries in an eighth month period of time, at the end of the final surgery, there was supposed to be, we were expecting the solution that we were hoping for and that just didn't happen.

It didn't happen. The vision was not restored and not only that, but there was a dimness, like an absence of light over what I could see. And so that brings to bear every aspect of your life. So my thought at that time is I sat with the doctor and realized that everything that could be done had been done and that we still were in a place that was not healed. And that particular day, on that particular day, I was scheduled to do a regular teaching which at that time we were doing through video conference calling.

So there were probably 15, 20 people scheduled to attend and it was my responsibility to bring the message and basically to minister. And as I got closer to that time, I realized what a crossroads had now existed. And so much decision was at my fingertips so that I could decide whether to proceed with the teaching or not. I could decide whether to just really collapse in total despair or not. I could decide or choose or work my way through what was ahead, taking it a day at a time or not. These things are at my fingertips.

They are mine to choose. And the closer we came to the appointed time to gather, I knew that that first decision needed to be to continue and to speak and to share and to be completely transparent. And needless to say, it was a video conference and all of the wear and tear of the day to me was apparent in my appearance. So it was not something to be hidden in my appearance or in my voice really or in any way.

It wasn't hidden. I was exposed, I always think of that word as meaning vulnerable, but I don't want to overstate that because the group of people scheduled to gather are huge. Huge in their faith, huge in every way, in my heart and in my thinking. So as I started to speak, I realized just how important it was to speak and to say exactly what my heart was saying. Since the word says out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.

So clearly my heart was about to say exactly what was happening. And as that meeting opened, just maybe minutes before, shortly before, I heard one thing from what I believe was the Spirit of God because of the way it affected me. And He said, and let me just back up here, it wasn't minutes before, it was that afternoon, I'm remembering now, that afternoon I remembered the text where the woman whose son had died told the prophet's messenger that all is well. The inquiry, how are you? How is your husband?

How is the boy? The mother answered, all is well. And I realized that was the word of the Lord to me. So now back to where we were in the afternoon, going into the session, I shared that. I explained, no matter what, no matter what, faith is in place intact, hope is not lost, trust is complete, all is well. And you know, something really happened when all of that happened.

Something happened in me. Really deep down, the psalmist said, David said in Psalm 51, my bowels, my bowels. And he was referring to the place of truth that comes forth when you are before the Lord, when you are being honest with Him. From such a deep, hidden, private, interior place, we reveal our true selves to the one who already knows our true selves because He made us, knew these moments before they ever happened, actually before the foundation of the worlds, before anything was Almighty God, who is my Father, knew that moment, He knew that time, He knew that inner working. And whether I would hear that message from Him that all is well and believe it and take it as my own, a story relayed in the Bible becomes personal to me and is now my testimony.

It's now who I am and God's Word to me. And because I think back on that time and remember how it affected my psyche and just my emotions, because I was completely, almost physically spent, there were other things going on in my life. For one, my mother was experiencing decline because of age, we were caring for her.

Other family dynamics, you know, everybody has them. And so we receive God's Word for each day, for each step. But the truth was, I was physically exhausted, emotionally affected, and really my spirit, though strong, was really pulling all of that. And so that would have been the fall of the year.

We went through the holidays, Thanksgiving, Christmas, nothing changed, the beginning of a new year, nothing changed. And in the second month of the year, in February, there was an appointment for a final, and if I remember this correctly, like a laser procedure that was actually just a healing process. It was a finishing touch.

And thank God for lasers, you know, they are a blast of light, right? So I wasn't thinking that it was going to make any difference, I really wasn't. I think I was thinking it was just another procedure. But that day, and about a 2-3 second blast from that laser, vision in one eye was restored. And that opening of that eye, the removal of the darkness, or the dimness, or whatever you call it, the shadow, and the opening up so that vision was restored, I think I not only responded with my voice and my body, but I awed but hugged the doctor.

I mean, that was something. And then the doctor realized, and he joined with me in that celebration. And you know, I think I've been walking a little above the earth, like not quite touching down since that time. And so whatever calms, and I'm still talking personally, feel free to apply this to yourself personally, to your situation or those around you personally. But since that day, confidence, like never before, is a possession, like I have it.

I own it, and I think, have thought in the past that my faith was strong. I learned faith early in my walk with the Lord, thank God, thank God there were faith teachers around me in the early days of my walk with the Lord. So I understand the faith of the Son of God, but also a confidence and a settling in my heart that only these kinds of things can affect, by affect I mean make happen. There are some things that only God can do despite our best intentions and greatest efforts.

And just when we think we know what we need and how to obtain what we need, we realize how short we fall. So well, the scripture just came to me, all have sinned and fallen short of the glory. And I'm not really talking about sin. I'm really saying that there is a glory line and a glory level that God has for each person, for you, and His plan to cause you to rise to that level of His glory, to walk in it and to know it is beyond anything you can think, imagine, plan, or work out. God is at work in you to will and to do of His good pleasure. It gives Him pleasure to give you the kingdom.

And while He will give you material things, thank God, He will give you health as He has done for me. But it is His pleasure to give you the kingdom, the whole thing, the whole thing, to walk with Him, to hear His voice and to know Him. And like me, you can say that you realize that as you're in the place of prayer, seeking the Lord, inquiring of Him, petitioning Him, you realize that what you are saying as you are praying is being answered as you pray it. For example, as you are praying through a situation and you have believed, God, your kingdom come, your will be done, you realize that in the situation, what He is doing is causing His kingdom to come and His will to be done, but it's a little bit bumpy. And it's taking some effort here.

It's not the way we want it to be. It's a difficult time, a challenge, a test, a bumpy road. But listen, many times the answer to your prayer is in the place where then you would turn and pray another prayer to be delivered out of that place that you're in because you prayed an earlier prayer. You prayed, thy kingdom come, thy will be done. And God is working it out to will and to do of His good pleasure. And so now submit, submit to His Spirit, to what He's doing, how He's doing it, those that He is including and maybe using, you know, because that can be shocking really. The Word says, He prepares a table for me in the presence of my enemies, a banquet, a feast for me in the presence. You might say face to face with my enemies. And that word is not there for no reason.

It's true. The very banquet that God has for you can be misinterpreted because your enemy is present. So one of the things we say in our family, you know, when you come into a room and there are others present, read the room, sense what's going on with the people there. You're not the most important person entering the room. You're probably the least important actually, because we've come to such a time as this for higher purposes than our own level.

We've come to see the fulfillment of God's kingdom and His will in other people. So as I said, read the room, and as you read the room, you realize and you sense the concerns, needs, issues of others as you encounter them. And it's really not hard to do. You don't have to be spiritual. You don't have to be a spiritual giant. Just think about it. And the Lord will show you, and you may not be able to say a thing, but maybe you will, or can, or somehow affect.

So I digress just a little here, but that's good information, by the way. When you're in the place of prayer and you're experiencing or coming through crisis and everything around you is shaking, fear is at the door, panic becomes terror quickly. It metastasizes.

It goes to other places and begins to grow. So in that place, enlarge your heart, expand your hope, lift up your eyes to the hills. That's where your help comes from and hear clearly. And my thought is, actually my prayer, and I believe this, as the Lord will say to you what He said to me, it is well. It is. It is well, no matter what. So today let's pray. What is this message? This is a message about resurrection, the resurrection of the Son of God from the dead who defeated death and hell, rose again and is seated at the right hand of God the Father Almighty and those who believe in Him, who have asked Him to be Lord and Savior are seated with Him at the right hand of God the Father God Almighty. I'm just hearing so many verses right now. This message of resurrection is a deliverance message. It is a healing message. It's rescue, death, hell, fear, terror, torment, trauma, disaster, and overwhelming, burying assaults from every side have no power.

One where resurrection is present, the resurrected Lord on the inside of you. So we pray that right now. Father, in Jesus' name, we hear the voice of the Lord thundering. Lord, you cause the mountains to shake with your voice.

You cause the deer to give birth with your voice. And that voice today to us thunders through our being, breaks through the exterior, penetrates to the interior, goes to the deepest part where secrets are held and kept, where we haven't opened to anyone or anything ever. And yet from that deep, deep place, as David prayed in Psalm 51, I desire truth in the most inward parts is our prayer. And we have truth.

We have resurrection life and everything that that means and all that goes with it. Father, we declare that yours is the kingdom, is the power, and is the glory forever and ever throughout eternity, now and throughout eternity. And we say, all is well. In the name of Jesus, Yeshua, our Lord, Amen. Listen, God bless you in this season. I just look out right now as I'm speaking and I feel as if I see, you know, so many people in so many places and how, as the hymn says, or the song says, may the circle be unbroken, you know, may the circle be unbroken, may this connection be really strong. We'll see you next time.

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